Sadden But Different

I feel different... I feel sad but it is not because of things I don't have... It's because I can't seem to appreciate the things I do have. I am always so worried about money...whats the point i can't take it with me when i die. I wish I could have time for the things i want to do...I barely have any alone time and when i do its at night when i am asleep... I dream of all the things i wish i had. I wish that I didn't feel half of what i do. Jealously, rage, and many more.