Strange Feelings

I never thought things would end up this way 3 years ago. Somethings have turned out better then i thought but i still feel like something it missing. My mom says it is Jesus. I agree but I beieve there is something else. Maybe my health, I don't know. Maybe my heart is still healing. I still think about him a lot and i hope that is moving on and happy. I just hope he forgets about me. However i know i will always think of him. He was my first love even if we werent right for each other.