I dunno

So today is John and I's 5 month. Yay we have made it. But something is happening to me I don't if I am really ready to settle down. I am almost 21. I want to have some more fun. I need to start taking care of me. I want to get into shape. I have been saying this for years. I think once I am on shape I will become a different person whether good or bad. I dunno. I am so confused. past is always coming up. I don't know want to do anymore.