The Test

Last night I hung out with my ex Josh. It was interesting and very rewarding to me. I didn't do anything with him. He wanted to kiss me and I said no and that I love John. I didn't cheat on John. I was true. This may sound bad but everytime I have a boyfriend and I go back to Josh, just to hang out, I always cheat on the person I am with. But this time was different, the feeling i have for Josh aren't for him. All my feeling and love is for John. John helped me get rid of the guy that hurt me the most. I told John, and he wasn't mad at me. John was proud and actually I believe he loves me more. You see if things were happen and go wrong, they would have last night and they didn't . I proved to myself that I can forget about Josh. (by the way Josh called me on a different number) So this is how it is gonna be, I love John and that is final and we are gonna be together forever.

So In Love

John is the best thing that has happened to me in a long time. We are perfect for each other. He is sexy, sweet, loving, incredible (wink wink); he is just Mr. Wonderful. He is my angel. He saved me from my heartache. He is what I have been looking for. I have been freaking out a little bit lately. I have so many feeling for him and I just want to let him know. We are a match made in heaven.

I HAVE FINALLY FOUND HIM

After all this waiting and sad and loniness, i found found him. To think he has been right if front of my face for months. I noticed him before but I guess God was waiting for me to be ready. I finally learned to love who I was and started to be happy being alone. I started to realize what I was worth. The funny thing is I realized what I was worth by watching a movie in school, "The Joy Luck Club". The movie is about realizing what your worth. Movies are great. But anyways more on him. We work at the same place but different shifts. I work second, he works third. We pretty much have the same days off. He is such a sweetheart. He is such a gentleman. When we kiss it is like magic, I feel like something is going through my whole body. He touch is so soft and delicate, he makes me tremble inside. When I see him my heart beats fast and I just want to hold him forever. He is what I have been looking for. And now he is all mine and I am all his. I want this to last, I will do everything I can to make it work. I am falling in love with him, but this time it is different. Because I dream about him, think about him, talk about him and write about him, and more hehe. He is the man I have been looking for and no one is gonna take him any from me.