Feeling Down

I feel so down in the dumps. Why do they say first loves are hard to get over. It makes it seems there is an excuse to hold on. Even if you have a new life, one that you have always wanted sometimes it feels incomplete. It that stupid saying. Not having closure doesn't help the sitution. I always thought maybe if he changed things would work out, but I see that things will never change. He is stubborn and I can't only blame him for everything. I did a lot but at least I am willing to change or try.

"There was a time When I was so broken hearted Love wasn't much of a friend of mine The tables have turned, yeah Cause me and them ways have parted That kind of love was the killin' kind Now listen All I want is someone I can't resist I know all I need to know by the way that I got kissed I was cryin' when I met you Now I'm tryin' to forget you Love is sweet misery I was cryin' just to get you Now I'm dyin' Ôcause I let you Do what you do - down on me Now there's not even breathin' room Between pleasure and pain Yeah you cry when we're makin' love Must be one and the same It's down on me Yeah I got to tell you one thing It's been on my mind Girl I gotta say We're partners in crime You got that certain something What you give to me Takes my breath away Now the word out on the street Is the devil's in your kiss If our love goes up in flames It's a fire I can't resist v I was cryin' when I met you Now I'm tryin' to forget you Your love is sweet misery I was cryin' just to get you Now I'm dyin' Ôcause I let you Do what you do to me Cause what you got inside Ain't where your love should stay Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain't love If you give your heart away I was cryin' when I met you Now I'm tryin' to forget you Your love is sweet misery I was cryin' just to get you Now I'm dyin' just to let you Do what you do what you do down to me, baby, baby, baby I was cryin' when I met you Now I'm tryin' to forget you Your love is sweet misery I was cryin' when I met you Now I'm dyin' cause I let you Do what you do down to , down to, down to, down to I was cryin' when I met you Now I'm dyin' to forget you Your love is sweet I was cryin' when I met you" This would be the song that explains a lot of our relationship that we had and now. Other things that remind is 80's music, cold nights, mellow days, the woods, hidden lakes, night drives, and just a lot of little things. I know I will start to forgetthese things or hope that I will. I need to move on from the past. This time it really feels like it is over. JOhn cam into my life and I just can't see any others. John is the cut off, no more. John is the one I want to marry and be with. I want to start a life and family. I know that we have been together only for 6 and a half months, and I know that I won't completely be over Josh but I will one day and then John will be the all one I think about but till then all I can do is slowy forget Josh. I may forget but I know that I will always love him.