"I'm Lost Without You"

I feel alone again. There is still that feeling of emptiness inside of me. I know what it is but I know I must restrain and just try to get over it. The pain hurts so much. But I must ignore everything I feel. Your gone and this time I believe it is forever. I will miss you and hope that you will find happiness. Even though you hurt me for all these years, leading me on and lying about me to your closest friends and family, I still forgive you and pray that your life will be better without me in it. I hope that your heart will learn to understand everything that you did to me and everything thing I did to you. I hope you can forgive me.

Strange Feelings

I never thought things would end up this way 3 years ago. Somethings have turned out better then i thought but i still feel like something it missing. My mom says it is Jesus. I agree but I beieve there is something else. Maybe my health, I don't know. Maybe my heart is still healing. I still think about him a lot and i hope that is moving on and happy. I just hope he forgets about me. However i know i will always think of him. He was my first love even if we werent right for each other.